Personal Conflict.

I don't think I realised how difficult this project would be when I fist started. I've been all over the internet, all through youtube, and have seen some pretty horrible things. I don't know how well I'm actually going to be able to handle all of this. I've seen a kittens head get cut off, and monkeys having drugs pumped into their stomachs through thick tubes in their nose. Its truly horrific, and to think that some people don't care, or are simply unaware of this is... sad. I'm stuck in an internal conflict, where one part of me wants to be strong, to watch all this and understand rather than be unaware, so then I can help other people see. But then the other part of me wants to cover my eyes, to not watch all of this, because of the effect it has on me personally. I don't know if I can handle this or not. I'm sitting here and I honestly wonder, how could anyone do this to an animal? You'd have to be heartless to be that cruel. How could someone beat a dog? All they want to do in life is love, and recieve love. How could a person look into those eyes, and proceed to break its neck? Its so ridiculously wrong. Gaah. D: